Life.......and its speedbumps (DEEP stuff so dont comment ANY useless arguments)

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

LONG POST YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.....but good for some to read....kind of my lil rant on my life bc i neede to talk about it

Well over this year i have gone through alot of s***. To some it may be minor but when your only 20 it seems like alot. I have slowly realized what truely matters in life. I have always been a true family oriented person. And well im mainly posting this bc I have to say to many people take advantage of what they have. Including myself. I now realize who my real friends are and that family and friends are there for you no matter what.

This year alone for me has been the worst year most of you dont know but i got in a really bad accident at the begining of this semester. It is still pending but i hit a gentelman at 11pm after leaving work. NO I WASNT SPEEDING AND I know you guys know i race and drive like a dumbazz BUT for once i wasn't. This effected me greatly bc i HATE driving at night now. Whenever i see a person it scares the s*** out of me. Luckily when this happened i only just shifted into second so i was prob going 15-20mph. The man ran out into my car i swerved but he still hit the passenger side and fell along the entire side of the car. when i stepped out he was lying on the floor in the middle of the road with a puddle of blood by his head unconcious. The lady behind me whitnessed the whole thing so she pulled over with me. Thankfully 2 volunteer firefighters were right behind her so I felt a little better. I had to get my car towed "had it for a week" and i was taken to the hospital for a BAC test. They made me blow and take blood. Ended up scratching the whole side of the car and broke the mirror on the right side. I am now going to be getting sued by him at some point dont know when but he has an lawyer already we were told.

IMO this is not why i got into the above accident. I have had bad eyesite since i was born. I have a heart condition "marfans Syndrome" that brings about VERY bad eyesite. Im telling you this becasue i recently found out i can get an operation to improve my vision significantly. I have always had problems seeing but most people don't get this. Yes i can drive bc i have "20-40" corrected in both eyes but only with contacts. I have contacts which have given me nothing but problems since 8th grade. It does help me but it doesnt bc of all the infections i get from them. I have a -19 perscription which is horrible, throw away contacts only go up to -13 so i need yearly lenses. I will be getting the operation over this summer but when i do i wont be able to see out of the eye they do for a month. And then the next month they will do the next eye. This was supposed to be my summer where i enjoyed it, went out with friends and got an internship in NYC. I had this lined up but now i cant do it bc of the operation. And now when i go to shows this summer i wont be alone ill need either a friend or my dad to drive sooo yea summers gonna blow. After the operation i wont be able to do anything literally in bed for a week. I wont be able to lift anything over 10lbs or i can pop the stiches out. I cant even bend over to pick something up off the floor bc again stiches can pop out. The operation will take about 2-3 months and will begin in the begining of June. Im hoping everything goes well bc as slight of a chance it is i can go blind from it theres an 8% chance of that and bc i have marfans it makes the number go up. But when youve lived life through my eyes its worth the risk so GOD please be on my side lol pleaseeeeee. This will prob be the most impacting thing to happen to me in my life. I will have the BEST doctors on the east coast working on me with this. So i have faith in them even my regular eye doc said if he was me he would do this in a heartbeat if it was him. And im forced to do it now bc im in college under my parents insurance which will cover the expenses. Im doing this because this will help me bc with the eyes i have ill need a great health care plan and the way the economy looks i dont want to risk waiting. Plus i dont know what kind of job ill have when i get out of school anyway so im doing it.

Also about 2 months before the accident me and my gf broke up "august/sept". We went out for about 2 years. This may be dumb but it is another spped bump. I met her freshman year im now a junior at college. We were VERY serious and we talked about marriage and pretty much had it all planned out. Sucks when you see someone you love after your done. I tried talking to her and being friends but she shut me out saying we couldnt talk anymore "her bf told her this". This pissed me off but to top it off she deleted EVERY pic of us on facebook. Which is weird to see bc she didnt have like any pics of her first 2 years at school now. Its like i never mattered or meant anything to her. This is something im pretty much over at this point but its hard when she really was everything in your life. I didn't hang out w/ my friends as much so when we broke up i was quite lost to say the least. Now im back to chillin with my friends and trying to forget her but its just tough when things come up. Like my mom just told me when we attended my uncles wedding she "my ex" told my cousin about her plans of us getting married. This wasnt just some puppy love crap. I may be young but I am the type of person who doesnt act there age I prefer the finer things in life like a job and a family.

Next was me getting into this accident that recently was posted. Not really a big deal but have you ever had NO CAR/transportation to and from school/ work and anything. I live off campus in an apt so i have to drive to school everyday. This is not easy when you dont have a car. I have been going stir crazy for the past month. I know to most people this is dumb but to me i cant sit still and play vidoe games all day. I have been stuck in my apt for a month not going out and just going to school when i have classes. My roomate drives me to classes bc hes in 3 of them.

Next my school BLOWS i hate it ever since i broke up w/ my gf it sucks. I recently got an underage at a party "im 21 in may". Ever since this party the cops have cracked down around here and now bust every party there is. SOOOOO i know college isnt supposed to be a party all the time i get that but i just want to be able to go out and socialize with my friends but we cant. As most of you know at 20 yrs old you usually go out to parties and such for socializing, i always have. I came to this school hoping to get out of NY and there snobbyness. But i recently noticed ny isnt snobby my high school was "went to a rich azz catholic school, and i was one of the so called not so rich kid" which sucks bc i feel if i went to Pace or a diff school in the city i would have loved it. Also i went to this school for business n its not known for it sooo i went to a s***ty school and now im worried about jobs when i get out. But w/e itll work out.

Next i have come into a little bit of money troubles thankfully i have a great sister who is a nurse who helps me out when im in need lol. I could have never asked for a better family. My sister is the best friend ive ever had, shes 4 yrs older than me and is always there for me. No it may not be alot of money to some but 1000 bucks in college is hard to come by quickly when you have no car "accident" to get to a job to pay it.

OVERALL im posting this because ive realized how much i love this car and how much joy its brought me. Yess its brought me some s***ty stuff but in the end this forum is the s***. I love it here i have met so many great friends on here who i have talked to and have helped me out. Darryl has always helped me with everything with my car. Literally and he knows what hes done. Ive met a ton of friends here too and you know who you are. Ive even run into problems and DOC whos in cali called me to help lol like this place is awsome.

I guess im writing this because i have been really s***ty lately and i cant wait for may to come. Overall im looking forward to Carlisle and the month of may to come. Im going to carlisle may 7-9 then i turn 21 may 18 and then may 20-idk im going to Florida with my cousin to party it up and just have some fun. I feel like i havent had fun in the longest time. I just really need a break. Ive been very stressed with school and all this crap. I just cant wait for summer so after that i can truely see, which is what i have always DREAMED of to see better. I never thought it ws possible but after this summer ill be alot happier. I cant wait for Carlisle and all the shows this summer. Props to NICO and Greg for making this place the s***. Greg as most of you dont know gave me a second chance here and im very happy he did. I plan on buying a new A/C, g37 or 370z as my next car just bc i want to keep it in the family, and keep on repping nico. And enjoying my life. I plan on either making a true "show car" or a true "race car" meaning ill get my license and do sanctioned races.

When life gives you a hard time you need to just look into the future and plan something nice for yourself. Sometimes people truely do need a vacation from lifes troubles.

[sammyboy]

I get where you are coming from. I too had serious issues early in the school year. There is a lot of pressure to keep my GPA over a 3.0 bc of my school program and for some reason I became so overwhelmed w/ work and school work that I had a breakdown sometime in October. I'm sorry that your girl broke up..Me and my girl have been together since 06 we celebrated out 3 1/2 earlier this month She is my soulmate and I don't know what I would do w/out her. I know stuff looks crappy right now but there is a bright side to it all. I honestly I do not know what I would do if I were in your situation w/ school. I commute to SUNY Old Westbury and let's face it for those who live in suburbs..you really need a car. Life in Long island, NY or suburbs is pretty hard without a car. Sometimes the public transporation sucks and if there is bad weather the buses/trains don't run accordng to schedule.

I don't know the extent to the reason you and your GF breaking up but i'm sure you were not the one at fault you seem like a humble person.

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

I get where you are coming from. I too had serious issues early in the school year. There is a lot of pressure to keep my GPA over a 3.0 bc of my school program and for some reason I became so overwhelmed w/ work and school work that I had a breakdown sometime in October. I'm sorry that your girl broke up..Me and my girl have been together since 06 we celebrated out 3 1/2 earlier this month She is my soulmate and I don't know what I would do w/out her. I know stuff looks crappy right now but there is a bright side to it all. I honestly I do not know what I would do if I were in your situation w/ school. I commute to SUNY Old Westbury and let's face it for those who live in suburbs..you really need a car. Life in Long island, NY or suburbs is pretty hard without a car. Sometimes the public transporation sucks and if there is bad weather the buses/trains don't run accordng to schedule.

I don't know the extent to the reason you and your GF breaking up but i'm sure you were not the one at fault you seem like a humble person.

werd i kinda posted this mainly to put some s*** into perspective for myself u know. Like i was on the phone with my parents today talkin with them about how this year has been rough as hell and that i appreciate how they try to help. But overall alot of it is you just gotta look for those positives. Like my accident sucks but im now getting a partial sponsorship from ED so i guess its like bad and good lol.

But the whole gf thing was a while ago it just sucks bc i had a girl after her but that s*** fd up and latley ive just been really s***ty bc i have nowhere to go so all im doin is thinking lol not to good when nothing is really good going on.

And here theres no transportation like legitly no trains no buses NOTHING im in the middle of nowhere it blows. And i looked into transfering but ill lose an entire year of schooling and i cant afford to do that u know.

W/E life sucks then s*** gets better i just NEED my car back so i can gtfo of my apt. All i do is go on NICO n chill with my friend who has an apt here. Alot of my friends on campus dont have cars so yea

[Rob.Vegan]

This year hasn't started out too great for me either, I already have $1300 in tickets (started late last year but I missed the court dates and appts).

I have no job and skipped school this semester because I couldn't keep up with a full time school schedule. I am very fortunate, and am thankful for all I have. I don't ever ask my parents for money although they do offer once in a while. I am having a super hard time finding a job so I make money whichever way possible, just doing things here and there for family and friends.

Good luck on your surgery I wish the best outcome.

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

This year hasn't started out too great for me either, I already have $1300 in tickets (started late last year but I missed the court dates and appts).

I have no job and skipped school this semester because I couldn't keep up with a full time school schedule. I am very fortunate, and am thankful for all I have. I don't ever ask my parents for money although they do offer once in a while. I am having a super hard time finding a job so I make money whichever way possible, just doing things here and there for family and friends.

Good luck on your surgery I wish the best outcome.

damn thats alot lol

n goodluck w/ the job hunt ill be doing that in like a week once i have my car back

and thanks man i appreciate it

[coupecrazy1232]

yeah bro i feel ya on most aspects except the gf thing...with all my heart conditions and many surgeries im doing it all sucks...actually im having another one thursday to see if it might be another way longshot of a disease...and having no car is bad but having one and not being able to drive her is terrible as well...living with severe chest pains day in and day out and not being able to find a cure is a s***ty way to live bro...but the only thing you can do is to just keep pushing harder everyday...or atleast till carlisle and then u just get totally smashed and drink ur worries away!!!!!!!!! its all going to come together bro u just have to believe it will!!

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

yeah bro i feel ya on most aspects except the gf thing...with all my heart conditions and many surgeries im doing it all sucks...actually im having another one thursday to see if it might be another way longshot of a disease...and having no car is bad but having one and not being able to drive her is terrible as well...living with severe chest pains day in and day out and not being able to find a cure is a s***ty way to live bro...but the only thing you can do is to just keep pushing harder everyday...or atleast till carlisle and then u just get totally smashed and drink ur worries away!!!!!!!!! its all going to come together bro u just have to believe it will!!

See i feel bad bc these stupid things that i feel like they matter shouldnt u know. Like especially you i mean ur going into surgery all the time, i could be just like that but my heart condition is under control right now. And hell we can get wasted im down for that i just dont wanna get to retarted so the next day wont be horrible.......We were in the sun all day if i was hungover i woulda died lol.

[big_rig]

dude life sucks sometimes, but you have to keep your head up. think about it like this, pretty much every youth is full of angst and hates their current situation. the grass always seems to look greener on the other side, but we all have to remember, the grass will never become greener unless we take action and put forth the effort to make it as such. you seem to have a lot going for you. everyone has hiccups along the way, but when you hear a story do you want to hear a fairy tale or do you want to hear a tale of someone who achieved greatness by persevering against all odds? the very things we despise now become the things that shape and mold our character into the way the world will see us later in life. i honestly envy you, you are going to school, you have a new car, you make it all work. i work my a** off to pay my bills and it seems as if i am spinning my wheels. im not going to school, i cannot find a meaningful relationship with women, let alone see past them as being more than objects. we both have dreams and want to achieve them, but the difference between you and i is, you acted on your dreams and planned for a better life. i wish i could do the same, but school seems overwhelming to me. im wonderful in class, but i the sign up process is a nightmare to me. not to mention my parents wouldnt help me pay for the cost of school and they put me in a income bracket where i did not qualify for financial aid. like i said in the begining, life sucks for everyone...but just be thankful that you are not spinning your wheels. i really like you, in part, because you are a giant just like me. so keep your head up dude and just know people out there that you really dont even know are pulling for you.

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

dude life sucks sometimes, but you have to keep your head up. think about it like this, pretty much every youth is full of angst and hates their current situation. the grass always seems to look greener on the other side, but we all have to remember, the grass will never become greener unless we take action and put forth the effort to make it as such. you seem to have a lot going for you. everyone has hiccups along the way, but when you hear a story do you want to hear a fairy tale or do you want to hear a tale of someone who achieved greatness by persevering against all odds? the very things we despise now become the things that shape and mold our character into the way the world will see us later in life. i honestly envy you, you are going to school, you have a new car, you make it all work. i work my a** off to pay my bills and it seems as if i am spinning my wheels. im not going to school, i cannot find a meaningful relationship with women, let alone see past them as being more than objects. we both have dreams and want to achieve them, but the difference between you and i is, you acted on your dreams and planned for a better life. i wish i could do the same, but school seems overwhelming to me. im wonderful in class, but i the sign up process is a nightmare to me. not to mention my parents wouldnt help me pay for the cost of school and they put me in a income bracket where i did not qualify for financial aid. like i said in the begining, life sucks for everyone...but just be thankful that you are not spinning your wheels. i really like you, in part, because you are a giant just like me. so keep your head up dude and just know people out there that you really dont even know are pulling for you.

hahahha very well said and i know what u mean bout the women thing im havin problems always pickin the wrong girls it sucks man and the last one was just a fun thing lol but she got pissed n now thats done its like f*** y do i like these hoey girls lmao

And man i hate school the only reason im doin it is bc my dad wants me to have it better than him. Ironically all i waant is to be as successful as he is you know. Good luck with ur stuff though b****es are always a problem thats neverending, even when ur married theres always somethin lol

[dldjros69]

D@mn Matt

u got alot on your mind. Nothing beer pong cant cure. Lets say 3 weeks ish!!!!!

Keep your head up

[BLKmomba1]

we all feel u Phenom... Life gets outa hand sometimes but that just means for you to get your focus together and take life by the horns. when obsticles come infront of you find a way to work them out, stay strong man. The sun allways comes out after the storm remember that!

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

D@mn Matt

u got alot on your mind. Nothing beer pong cant cure. Lets say 3 weeks ish!!!!!

Keep your head up

hahaha werd im deff down for that just lmk when your free

we all feel u Phenom... Life gets outa hand sometimes but that just means for you to get your focus together and take life by the horns. when obsticles come infront of you find a way to work them out, stay strong man. The sun allways comes out after the storm remember that!

Werd deff agree

[Kanard]

itll work out for the better. i should take my own advice but yeah, thats a diff story. hope u get another a/c!

[toxik]

Matt, I went to Pace and yeah it was awesome... lol no it wasnt. Still got like 2 classes to take.

I actually read the whole thing.... and this may sound negative but still hear me out. I can relate to you in many ways, but what I learned from experience is that the car modding thing is no different than a drug. At first you feel sad, you go and buy a car part and you're happy, after a while you're so used to it you just spend a lot of money on car parts. A really horrible investment, I mean this stuff depreciates so quick, you never make you're money back....

Here's an important quote from..... fight club, "the things you own, end up owning you." Don't let a car determine your level of happiness.

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

Matt, I went to Pace and yeah it was awesome... lol no it wasnt. Still got like 2 classes to take.

I actually read the whole thing.... and this may sound negative but still hear me out. I can relate to you in many ways, but what I learned from experience is that the car modding thing is no different than a drug. At first you feel sad, you go and buy a car part and you're happy, after a while you're so used to it you just spend a lot of money on car parts. A really horrible investment, I mean this stuff depreciates so quick, you never make you're money back....

Here's an important quote from..... fight club, "the things you own, end up owning you." Don't let a car determine your level of happiness.

yea i know my dad keeps telling me not to spend any more money on the car if i can get sponsored ill do it if not ill just keep it the way it is trust me once i have my spoilers on ill prob be done unless i get a really good deal on s***. But thanks 4 the advice. I really do love the car and i love the people i chill with u know. Its a good hobby for now keeps me busy.

[soxypoo]

wow man ... sorry to hear all that .... need help ??? is that the girl i saw you with at the meet in NJ ???? anyways good luck with everything man , hope everything works out your way

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

wow man ... sorry to hear all that .... need help ??? is that the girl i saw you with at the meet in NJ ???? anyways good luck with everything man , hope everything works out your way

haha nah that was just a thing lol she turned into a really weird f***in girl which sucked so yea lol s*** s*** and more s***

i just need to get my car back so i can gtfo of my school get a job and just gtfo of pa

[chrispizzitola]

Sounds rough man. Im currently without my car either which sux and im the same way. i get so bored of just sitting around playing video games. Fortunately for me i 50+ hours aweek so this keeps me busy but just stick through it. even if things dont go in your favor right now just keep your head up.

[PHENOMenalVinyl]

Sounds rough man. Im currently without my car either which sux and im the same way. i get so bored of just sitting around playing video games. Fortunately for me i 50+ hours aweek so this keeps me busy but just stick through it. even if things dont go in your favor right now just keep your head up.

werd thanks bro i cant wait to get my car so i can go get a frickan job itll be nice to get out of here