As men we all know we make mistakes, some that really fuk things up pretty good. Here is my story.
My girl, name is Janelle, is in NY for work right now and wont be back for another 2months, it is hard on us seeing we cannot be together or make love, and yes, my girl loves sex
anywho, Since being apart we have discovered new ways of expressing ourselves. We discribe what we want in words instead of actions. She started telling me how bad she wants me and how lonly its been for her, and went on to pleasing herself on the phone. I beign a guy was digging it totally, yeah phone sex is weird but hell, if i cant have the real thing, next best thing is the sound of my name being screamed. anyways, she gets really into it and is going nuts and I have no idea what to say, yeah it was cool, but im more a take action kinda guy instead of saying it, so i had no idea what to say, so she told me to just talk, so i asked her what i should talk about, she said anything, just talk, then she suggested cars. so i started rambling on about Nissan's and my 240SX and she was going nuts by the sound of my voice. so i started getting into it and saying car related sh1t but making it perverted, like changing a spark plug, and putting it in the hole. ya know, anyways, she continues to get off on the phone going crazy and im just listening enjoying it. all comes to all, when she finished (and let me tell you it was very amusing) she said "baby i really want you here"so my responce was "i wish i was there joanne" .... wait a fuking minute, her name is janelle dude, not ****ing joanne!!!!!
she ****ing caught it too! she was like "im janelle hunny" i was fuking scared man, i never cheated on her, never would thought of it either, so it really put me in a bad spot. i have no fuking idea why i would have said joanne.
my friend's X is named joanne and she moved to Huston for a while, but came back and i hung out with her the other night with Mike, funny thing is i called joanne janelle.
yeah so i had to try to explain to janelle that there is no joanne except my friend, and i would never think of her like that. How could i have said that!? it made me look soo fuking bad, becuase with janelle not being here in FL, the first thing to come to mind most likly was that i am messing around, and the timing to cal her that was way fuking off, right after her getting off. i wanted to drop dead right then and there, i said sorry about a million times, but i know i hurt her feelings. it really is bothering me how i could have called the girl i care about most in this world by a different name. I figured the reason i said joanne was because i was talking about cars and joanne has a nice M3
but still, how can i say her name right at that moment!!
how the hell could i be so fuking stupid! that sh1t really bothers me knowing what i did. and i know it hurt her alot, but its meaningless because nothing else is happening, i feel so bad, i know i would be hurt if she called me some other dudes name after we done something together that shows afection. so i am announcing to everyone here, that i am ******* OF THE YEAR!!!
i dont know if i should keep appolgising or should i just let it go and hope its not brought up again? i feel so freaking bad.
i have the coolest girl in the world though, i mean who here has a girl that can get off to you talking about cars????/ woot... i suck
-Jeff
