Right now, this moment might be one of the angriest times I've ever been. Reason: I'm a failure at college, and at life. On top of that, everything is ****ing me over. I have a drawing project, a portfolio review, and a sketchbook due in 15 minutes, NONE of them are done. The project has so far taken 14 hours LONGER than it was supposed to, I've now worked on it for over 24 hours, I've gone two full nights without sleep working on this **** and its still not ****ing done. I couldn't work on it this weekend, because I was in New Orleans, I had to go to New Orleans because I'm captain of our sailing team, and if I tell them I'll be somewhere, I'd goddamn better be there or else the entire team would not have been able to go. If we hadn't have gone, it would have dropped our ranking, if we dont go to enough regattas or suck, we have less chance of getting good funding last year. So yeah, it was not optional for me. On top of that, I'm having to drop a ****ing Communications 1010 class because I'm too stressed out and dont have enough time to go to it or do the work for it. It doesn't help that my ex of three years is in it with me. At this point, I MIGHT just be dropping enough classes to be down to only 6 hours. Also, my parents decided I'm such a failure at college that now I'm going to have to pay for it myself, so these to dropped classes are going to cost me a ****ing fortune. The money part doesn't bother me too much, I can always make more...but its still frustrating. I absolutely hate college, but there isn't a snowball's chance in hell of finding a decent girlfriend without being in college at my age. Oh another thing...I'm still single. Want to know something funny? I cant even e-mail my professor to ***** because my college e-mail isn't working, yahoo e-mail wont load, and
http://www.aol.com wont even open. EVERY other site works just fine, but e-mail doesnt! Really, I'm going to kill someone, I **** you ****ing not.